Ayahuasca is another wonderful way to heal and release decades of trauma. It will bring what needs to be confronted to the surface so that you may surrender into it and let it go. There have been so many success stories from people with trauma or physical illness that have completely transformed. Psycadelics are becoming very popular in the world of healing.
In the month of March, I flew out to Maryland to attend a 3 day Ayahuasca retreat. My first time ever taking Ayahuasca. My intentions going in was to have the experience since I am certified in Energy Work and Psycadelic Decoding & Activation. In which sometime in 2022 I would like to begin hosting my own retreats.
I flew into Pittsburg, PA and drove through West Virginia into Maryland with two other beautiful souls. Our ceremonies began each evening at 7pmwhere we would all gather and discuss what our intentions were for the evening. What did we want to heal, from the mother plant Ayahuasca. When it came to my intentions, they quickly shifted and I bursted out crying, I think I need to deal with my mothers passing, I said. My mother had passed around 13 years ago or so and I burred the pain of seeing her deteriorate from pancreatic cancer. First of all I didn’t even know what was wrong with her for months, her skin was yellow and she was hospitalized for vomiting blood, finally the doctor broke the HIPPA Law and told me she had Pancreatic Cancer and only had 3 weeks left to live. That was very shocking. So I made arrangements to have someone come into her home to begin caring for her. But it quickly got worse and she had to be rushed back to the hospital where then decisions had to be made by me and me alone. Her liver was failing and so blood was backing up into her stomach and lungs so they wanted to do an emergency surgery to have a stent put in so it would drain, her belly was huge, she was a petite woman with this huge bloated abdomen. One of the traumas I carried with me was letting this surgent who I met with that gave me really bad vibes and his hands were shaking, he couldn’t control the shaking of his hands and I thought this guy maybe had a drug problem, he did not feel professional, but he was the only option they said and it needed to be done immediately so I let him do the surgery. He had pierced her lung and I knew I should not have allowed him to do it because his hands were so shaky. So then she had to go back in again to fix the lung. And that’s just one of the incidences that had happened. I felt like she had been through hell along with the already torture from having stage 4 cancer. By the time I moved her from the hospital to a Hospice care and before she passed, she had no meat on her, she was just skin and bones and grey. The whole process I just felt very alone and did not know how to make the right decisions for her. So I burred guilt, for a long time, shut off all emotions and just never talked about her because I didn’t want the emotions to resurface. So my two days were really spent on healing from this situation through talk, feeling emotions, crying and vomiting. I did have some of the Psycadelic effects from the Ayahuasca but I spent more time in the healing stage which was much needed. By the time I got home, I felt different, lighter, I keep saying to myself, these are not my hands because my hands for some reason just feel weightless as does my body. I am grateful for the experience for sure. So what I have learned about Ayahuasca is that it brings your fears or situations to the surface to be dealt with so that you can heal. If you allow and surrender into what ever surfaces, it will pass and leave your body.
This is a huge part of the Energy Work that I do, to help people release these stagnant energies from traumas that have been burred and forgotten by the mind but not the body. The body still holds onto stuff. And therefor can manifest into illness, depression or just feeling stuck.
With Love & Light
Victoria
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